Friendship...

So this topic is on my heart recently because of a recent happening. I had a friend who was one of my closest, she knew everything about me I knew everything about her. We even lived together for a brief period of time. Then after moving out we drifted big time, she said I never wanted to hang out with her unless it benefited me. You see at this point in my life I didn't have a car to get around in, so yes often times we would go run errands and such while we were hanging out. Saying that I was using her though hurt me, cut right through my heart. I tried to get over it but I couldn't...She told me I was selfish. I denied being such a thing, we tried to mend our friendship but the problem was I never let her know I felt. I let her vent and get all her anger and emotion out on me, but never let out my own and it built up inside until one day it boiled over. It was all over a hat. Yes a hat. I had traveled back home and left a very special hat at her home. Then I saw she had posted pics on facebook of her out and about the town wearing MY precious hat...I went off! I was convinced she had kept the hat for herself because she liked it and I was furious. All the anger, frustration, and sadness swept over me all over a stupid hat. I deleted and blocked her on my facebook. I am a 22 year old woman and this just shows how immature I am and still have many character flaws that I am working on. The funny thing is I really thought she wouldn't notice that I deleted and blocked her, silly me. The next day I had a facebook message demanding an explanation. I told her the truth, I got a novel from her in reply and I can't lie I looked at the first line it read "Megan you need to listen to me for once" scrolled down to see how long it was and what it consisted of just scanning it then deleted it, I never even read the thing....I'm writing all of this now because I have realized I am selfish. Who deletes a friend out of their life over a hat? After coming back home and getting back in touch with God I realize how trivial and stupid this move was. My friend took me in when I had no shelter, provided me meals, a bed, and I threw our friendship out the door because of a hat. I hope one day this friend is able to read this post and genuinely know I'm sorry. I don't expect our friendship to be the same. Honestly I don't expect a friendship at all... I just need her to know I'm sorry. I mean it this time and I'm sorry that I have put you through this self-centered, selfish friendship.