An Updated Favorite List! Just in Case you are Curious...

1. My favorite song of all time is probably "The Gambler" by Fun. it is a beautiful love story enclosed cleverly within a song. Go check it out, I also saw Fun. in concert this year; one of the best concerts I have been to yet.


2. Letters & Cards oh my goodness it is such a dead art of communication now days, but seriously I have a very special someone who sends me cards and letters regularly and it is pretty much the coolest thing ever, thank you USPS!


3. My favorite movie of all time is probably "Midnight in Paris" I just relate with it completely hard to explain, but it is pretty much a magical romantic comedy. Watch it.


4. I have successfully completed my first year of college in exactly 1 week.


5. Some people read different things for fun. I have realized I personally prefer the classics, or something of substance that I learn things from, spiritual readings, and of course the Bible. My co-worker made fun of me about this fact, but I just said man the Bible has some crazy stories in it! Daniel and the Lions Den, Noah's Ark, Jonah and the Whale...those are real crazy stories regardless. haha


6. My favorite coffee cup is an oversized "Chicago" cup I purchased from a Starbucks during one of my many trips home from Germany


7. I am learning to budget not that I am perfect at it, but at the age of 23 I think I am getting the concept.


8. I start work part-time in exactly one week from today


9. I have lost 25 pounds over the course of 9 months, it has not been easy and I still "ideally" still have 15 to go, but I have done it none the less!


10. I have opened my heart back up again. After 2 years of running around staying closed off and reserved, I know how to feel again...and it feels good.

WHEN THE PUBLIC DEMANDS A TITLE, BUT YOU REQUIRE TIME...

So there is this guy...yes. This is how the blog shall start, so deal with it or just stop reading now! Anyways I think he is one cool cat, I mean he thinks like me, he balances my craziness, and he treats me like a princess (I know this term is highly over-used but for real it is ridiculous...in a good way!) That being said we are not the "stereo-typical" 2012 relationship, actually we are technically in no-relationship at all at the moment. If you have read my blog since the beginning there is a particular post in which I describe my idea of romance based on 2 single books I read that rocked my world and perspective on dating and marriage. It is one of the first post back on March 8, 2011 titled "There is No Modern Romance." Check it out if ya didn't get the chance! Anyways, one thing I didn't write in this blog was the author's first kiss with his wife on his wedding day. To me that is probably the most old fashioned romantic idea ever and I TOTALLY DIG IT! That being said, I am inclined to want a specific pattern of romance to commence before getting married that could lead to such a phenomenal event, yet I had yet to meet anyone as crazy as myself to even consider such bold/crazy/extreme/modest ideas in romance. I had accepted that I would be alone for quite some time and I was okay with that challenge...I had a goal and that would be my next relationship "playing for keeps, for forever." (Enters this boy) then all of the sudden everyone wants a definition on our non-relationship that has only been about 3 months total. No one understands our logic of building a solid friendship as a basis of a relationship, the bottom line is in 2012 people don't wait they rush...to the feeling of someone near, the emotional, the physical, all of it so impatiently. My generation is indeed the microwave generation "I NEED IT RIGHT NOW! 5 MINS. OR LESS!" One day I want to have a wedding invitation that reads "Please join us for our first kiss." and have so much anticipation built up I can hardly stand it! Cheesy as it sounds those are my standards, and patience is just part of the process. After a lot of speculation I felt it was time to throw this out, I like a boy, he likes me, we are just different so even if you don't comprehend or understand why anyone would dream of such a thing you now know why there is no title for at least 3 more months. We are making sure we have a solid friendship to build off of and not base this whole thing off of lust and impatience, but on God and patient persistence. It is what it is.

Antagonists, Algebra, A's, and an Acceptance Letter....

This summer I decided to be an over-achiever, I took 9 hours of college consisting of Intermediate Algebra, Psychology, and Philosophy. Over the past 4 weeks I have pushed myself to the max, expecting nothing less than A's in all of my classes. Most of you all know I have always struggled with math (hence the reason I am in Intermediate math and not College Algebra) well this summer math course is quite frankly kicking my tail. I mean I have never struggled so much in a single class. Along with this struggle I am really fighting to make an A in my Psychology class, but I fear my teacher isn't a huge fan of me (which I feel is quite odd due to the fact that it is online...I mean how is that even possible right!?) anyways that being said I have several antagonists at the moment consisting of 1)Algebra 2)One specific Professor who shall remain nameless 3)My co-worker who also will remain nameless who overheard a conversation of mine about my trials and responded with "Well we should probably just get a noose and hang her with it to put her out of her misery." Yup that happened today...but instead reacting angrily I turned the other cheek, I just looked at this individual and asked "Really?" Then proceeded to help this individual out at the end of the day. God gave me grace, though my feelings were extremely hurt as I really have had quite a rough season this past month with a knee injury, stresses of school, and lack of sleep I had let the negativity set into my mind with no intention of doing so. But even so all I could think was "Do unto others..." So I did. Anyways long story short I had a series of unfortunate events happen throughout the day and accepted that things will get better in time (Aka when I have time to schedule a doctors appointment and when summer school is over.) The beauty of today however occurred when I got home I had on my bed an unopened package from the University of Central Oklahoma. I thought to myself "Welp here is my letter saying that they have rejected me until I have all my OSU-OKC summer college credits in place on my final transcript from there; since that is indeed what the transfer counselor had warned me of last Thursday. What a terribly perfect ending to this perfectly terrible day." Upon opening I was flabbergasted by the acceptance letter glaring back at me, the President made an exception and I was accepted! God threw me a curve ball with this one, it was the most surprising gift I have received from him in quite sometime! I am so glad that even on my worst of worst days he still blesses me even when I throw myself self-righteous pity parties. I am blessed. Even in a season of trials and endurance.

Priorities...or lack there of.

The past 3 weeks I have had off from school, this was the perfect number of weeks to have a break from school. Since I am new at this whole college thing I feel I might never go back if I do allow myself a summer vacation. I have decided to endure the summer classes for the next 2-3 years to come (My major is education so I figure I will get my summers back eventually). Anyways that being said I have been trying to "super prioritize" my vacant 3 weeks, during this time I have realized I am probably one of the most inefficient time-managers here on planet Earth. After work today I just sat down in my floor and had a mini freak out session. "It wasn't those I am crying my eyes out cause I am overwhelmed moment" more like a scream with no purpose because "I need to buy hangers to hang the plethora of clothing I have clean folded with no place to put them away, I need a place to hang my necklaces, bracelets, and earrings, I need to find a bigger dresser, I need to buy school-books, I need to go scrub and shoe shopping, I need to wash my car and vacuum it, I need time to read my lists of 3 books I am desperately wanting to read for fun, but most of all I need time with my God." Yup confession I get super cranky when I don't get my quiet time, prayer drive to work, and devotion time during the day. Today was one of those days I woke up too late, got stuck in a downpour on the drive to work missing out on my ample prayer time, then I had to run downstairs at lunch because I forgot my water bottle due to the running late and therefore missed my routine devotion time during lunch, I got home and pondered upon what is keeping me from doing everything. It is myself. I try to be everything for everyone all the time. I end up in pure exhaustion with nothing left to give. Therefore I neglect the true priorities that God commands me to make a daily effort with. Jesus wants me to spend time with him each day, he wants me to take a true Sabbath and just rest. Psalm 46:10 practically screams it to us "BE STILL AND KNOW THAT I AM GOD!" How do I miss this each day and exalt my other selfish desires before the one who tells me I am fearfully and wonderfully made?(reference verse Psalm 139:14) My prayer as I enter this intense summer college session is that I would be purposeful to prioritize my life around Christ and rest in him alone even if this means turning down my very best friend on a "hang out session" because I haven't had my "hang out session with God" that day. I know this life is not my own and I am here only to glorify him, I feel a consistent spirit rising within me saying "Remain, be patient, know I am faithful, and know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose." (reference verse Romans 8:28) I am confident that Proverbs 16:3 is pure truth "Commit to the Lord whatever you do, and your plans will succeed." Whether it be re-prioritizing or chasing a career or college degree...I know my plans are the desires of my soul and convictions on my heart, I pray yours are as well.

Confession : Christians Sometimes Drive Bad.

A couple months back my church kind of in a way campaigned a well-known bumper sticker to highly influence the public to come visit our church while driving...One particular Sunday I slipped out into the lobby and sheepishly slid one into my purse. The sticker has somehow traveled from my purse to my notebook in which I take my notes every Sunday, a consistent reminder that I have yet to place this sticker on my vehicle. Every time I see this sticker I think about it...how I should just go wash my car, pick the proper placement, and just commit. You know commit to my church and of course Jesus Christ who will be so proud when he sees me "inadvertently witnessing to all the lost souls on the highway everyday!" But I just can't and here is why, most days Monday-Friday I tend to run behind in the morning for work, I make a 15-20 minute commute from Yukon to the N.W. side of OKC and well lets just say Jesus doesn't always ride "shot-gun" with me on my way. I weave in and out of traffic, speed more times than not, and sometimes I might just follow one who drives slow a tad too close for comfort. Though I have gotten better with what I tend to consider "always-late anxiety road rage" I still have a lot of learning to soak up in the patience department when it comes to being behind the wheel. Then there is Sunday morning for some reason every Sunday my dress doesn't fit just right, my makeup takes an abnormally long amount of time to apply, or my hair won't sit just so causing me to rush once again, this time to church instead of work. I will occasionally get so worked up over being behind a slow car and catch myself thinking "REALLY!? Meg it is your fault you are late and now you are getting all worked up on the SABBATH! On the one day of the week you are suppose to be chill and rest in the Holy Spirit..geez you are lame." Yes I sometimes think in 3rd person haha. Anyways the past couple weeks I have noticed a whole lot of bad drivers around me...several of them sporting my church's famous bumper sticker. All the while thinking "I am so glad I don't sport that sticker like them so no one can associate me as that one speeding super sinner from that one church." Anyways then I realized wait a minute we are all sinners and lets be honest we all pretty much believe most people other than ourselves suck at driving. That being established I think it is time to finally succumb and place the sticker on my car. This is seriously a blog over my convictions over a bumper sticker. That is all.

"Where is your Mr. Right my love?"

A friend's mother who I dearly love and adore recently stated "Meg I just don't understand how you have not managed to meet your Mr. Right yet! I mean you are just so personable I just don't get it." I hadn't seen her in a bit and I guess she was a little taken back at the fact that I have for the most part been alone now for 2 years. Of course when someone says something of this manner it gets your wheels spinning...so naturally I started thinking all of these thoughts. "Why haven't I met my Mr. Right? Did I miss him in the Starbucks down the street from work while ordering my tall skinny vanilla latte, upside down? Did I brush shoulders with him last Sunday at my church? What if I haven't missed him at all? What if there is just something wrong with me? Maybe I need to drop 20 lbs, change my hair color, or change my giggly outrageous personality to one that is more adult and refined, that is why I haven't found him!" Then I had to hit the brakes in my mind...doubt had clouded my head and I needed it shut it out. I took two steps back and re-evaluated the situation. "No there is nothing wrong with me, I just happen to keep my heels high and my standards higher. I do not have a Mr. Right because I am still being refined and renewed through Christ daily so one day I can be Ms. Right for Mr. Right. Therefore I need not worry, God has me on his plan for my life and it is not my own. God's map for my life is a beautiful journey in which only he sees the final destination as cliche as it sounds I believe it with all of my heart. I am holding out for that one who is holding out for me right now, though I have yet to meet him I am confident he is out there being refined by God as well. For now all of my love is directed to the one who gave me love and reminds me daily of the love he has for me. I am whole and complete in his presence. No Mr. Right necessary :)

Old Fashioned Letters and Love Stories

I have been in quite the romantic mood, which is hilarious due to the fact that I am not dating nor even "talking" to anyone at the current moment. One might ask "How could you possibly in a romantic mood with no romantic interest?" Well I would say it is due to my recent purchase of scented candles, current listening pleasures of Michael Buble, Frank Sinatra, and Jamie Cullum, and there is the purchase of last night Shakespeare's Romeo and Juliet (the 1997 version staring Leonardo DiCaprio) from the DVD bargain bin at Wal-Mart...oh and I also recently watched Little Women crying hysterically at the end when Jo and the Professor end up together (Yes I am that girl). Also I am really wanting to see Titanic in 3D because I mean come on it is Titanic in 3D! Need I say more!? Okay now that I have that confession out here is my other one, I want to start consistently writing letters to those who are dear to me...seriously snail mail letters. I think there is something so sentimental, nostalgic, heart-warming, and of course in the right context romantic about a little envelope addressed in another person's writing rather than the typed out print we have become so immune to throughout the past decade or two. Plus you know all the great love stories in life never began with "Well we met, I added him on facebook, he got my number off there, then we went on a date." Where is the romance and passionate pursuit in that? I want an old fashioned kind of courtship one fine day, letter writing and all! Hahaha ;) So please if you would enjoy some personal "snail-mail" send me your address via facebook message and I would love to write you sometime. Only under the pretense that you are obliged of course to write back as well, you know it takes two to tango lovelies!