Priorities...or lack there of.

The past 3 weeks I have had off from school, this was the perfect number of weeks to have a break from school. Since I am new at this whole college thing I feel I might never go back if I do allow myself a summer vacation. I have decided to endure the summer classes for the next 2-3 years to come (My major is education so I figure I will get my summers back eventually). Anyways that being said I have been trying to "super prioritize" my vacant 3 weeks, during this time I have realized I am probably one of the most inefficient time-managers here on planet Earth. After work today I just sat down in my floor and had a mini freak out session. "It wasn't those I am crying my eyes out cause I am overwhelmed moment" more like a scream with no purpose because "I need to buy hangers to hang the plethora of clothing I have clean folded with no place to put them away, I need a place to hang my necklaces, bracelets, and earrings, I need to find a bigger dresser, I need to buy school-books, I need to go scrub and shoe shopping, I need to wash my car and vacuum it, I need time to read my lists of 3 books I am desperately wanting to read for fun, but most of all I need time with my God." Yup confession I get super cranky when I don't get my quiet time, prayer drive to work, and devotion time during the day. Today was one of those days I woke up too late, got stuck in a downpour on the drive to work missing out on my ample prayer time, then I had to run downstairs at lunch because I forgot my water bottle due to the running late and therefore missed my routine devotion time during lunch, I got home and pondered upon what is keeping me from doing everything. It is myself. I try to be everything for everyone all the time. I end up in pure exhaustion with nothing left to give. Therefore I neglect the true priorities that God commands me to make a daily effort with. Jesus wants me to spend time with him each day, he wants me to take a true Sabbath and just rest. Psalm 46:10 practically screams it to us "BE STILL AND KNOW THAT I AM GOD!" How do I miss this each day and exalt my other selfish desires before the one who tells me I am fearfully and wonderfully made?(reference verse Psalm 139:14) My prayer as I enter this intense summer college session is that I would be purposeful to prioritize my life around Christ and rest in him alone even if this means turning down my very best friend on a "hang out session" because I haven't had my "hang out session with God" that day. I know this life is not my own and I am here only to glorify him, I feel a consistent spirit rising within me saying "Remain, be patient, know I am faithful, and know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose." (reference verse Romans 8:28) I am confident that Proverbs 16:3 is pure truth "Commit to the Lord whatever you do, and your plans will succeed." Whether it be re-prioritizing or chasing a career or college degree...I know my plans are the desires of my soul and convictions on my heart, I pray yours are as well.

Confession : Christians Sometimes Drive Bad.

A couple months back my church kind of in a way campaigned a well-known bumper sticker to highly influence the public to come visit our church while driving...One particular Sunday I slipped out into the lobby and sheepishly slid one into my purse. The sticker has somehow traveled from my purse to my notebook in which I take my notes every Sunday, a consistent reminder that I have yet to place this sticker on my vehicle. Every time I see this sticker I think about it...how I should just go wash my car, pick the proper placement, and just commit. You know commit to my church and of course Jesus Christ who will be so proud when he sees me "inadvertently witnessing to all the lost souls on the highway everyday!" But I just can't and here is why, most days Monday-Friday I tend to run behind in the morning for work, I make a 15-20 minute commute from Yukon to the N.W. side of OKC and well lets just say Jesus doesn't always ride "shot-gun" with me on my way. I weave in and out of traffic, speed more times than not, and sometimes I might just follow one who drives slow a tad too close for comfort. Though I have gotten better with what I tend to consider "always-late anxiety road rage" I still have a lot of learning to soak up in the patience department when it comes to being behind the wheel. Then there is Sunday morning for some reason every Sunday my dress doesn't fit just right, my makeup takes an abnormally long amount of time to apply, or my hair won't sit just so causing me to rush once again, this time to church instead of work. I will occasionally get so worked up over being behind a slow car and catch myself thinking "REALLY!? Meg it is your fault you are late and now you are getting all worked up on the SABBATH! On the one day of the week you are suppose to be chill and rest in the Holy Spirit..geez you are lame." Yes I sometimes think in 3rd person haha. Anyways the past couple weeks I have noticed a whole lot of bad drivers around me...several of them sporting my church's famous bumper sticker. All the while thinking "I am so glad I don't sport that sticker like them so no one can associate me as that one speeding super sinner from that one church." Anyways then I realized wait a minute we are all sinners and lets be honest we all pretty much believe most people other than ourselves suck at driving. That being established I think it is time to finally succumb and place the sticker on my car. This is seriously a blog over my convictions over a bumper sticker. That is all.